I just wish I could figure this out. I want so badly to lose weight and like what I see when I look at myself, but I just can't stick to it. I don't know what I need to do to get my motivation to stick. I start, last a few days, and then just give up. I usually have some sort of slip up and then I just throw in the towel. I KNOW that one slip up is not the end of the world and that I should just keep moving forward, but I don't think I have forced myself to really believe in that. It's so hard for me to know what is rational and then yet I can't seem to get it through my head.
I saw this on someone's blog today. I was scanning random blogs, so I apologize that I don't know where I stole it from. If you are reading this and it was yours, please tell me so I can give credit where it is due.
Why am I not important to myself? I obviously always make excuses and stop working towards my goal. Why can't I find the way? What is it I am missing? I think that I need a mind makeover before I can start my body makeover. At least that's how I feel. I need to believe in the process and believe in myself. When I figure it out, I'll let you all know!
Yesterday I achieved something great and I forgot to mention it! I had my precious baby on 12/15/11. He's a perfect baby. He rarely cries and sleeps for 4 hour blocks of time at night and I constantly think to myself that going from 2 to 3 has been MUCH easier than I imagined. In fact, dealing with the older two has been harder on me!
So what have I done that is so important?? I have officially LOST all of the baby weight. I can't say that my weight that I carry is "baby weight." I was 180 before getting pregnant and yesterday I weighed in at 179.8. YAY! I have never had a problem losing that which I gain while pregnant. I don't tend to gain a lot anyway. I'm usually really sick and then towards the end I just don't feel like eating much. After having my babies the weight seems to fall off because of breast feeding. I can't say that it's easy to keep off once I stop breast feeding, but I'll take what I can get to start my progress!
So while some of you are throwing daggers at me for saying that it's "easy" to lose my baby weight.... please know that I have weight to lose yet that piled up LONG before I had any of my babies. The most I ever gained with any pregnancy was 25 pounds. This last pregnancy I gained 24 pounds. Those are the "easy" pounds to lose. However, it's the 35 pounds I found in high school and college that I can't seem to lose!!!
That's my news and that's what I wanted to share. At least I have a good start. Now I just need to keep it going. :)
Happy 2012! The kids, hubby, and I stayed up until exactly 12:01am. Well, I'm pretty sure I was out after that, but the kids might have still been awake! I'm not much for going out on NYE now that we have kids. It just means sitters, anxiety, and coming home late to find who knows what happened while we were gone! We don't have a reliable sitter that I would be ok leaving my 2 week old with anyway! (or my 2 year old :)
So what does the new year mean to me? Well, for one, it's a good time to start anew since I just had baby bean. I am only 2.5 weeks past having him, so it's not like I can go out and run 5 miles, but it does give me a sense of "a new life." I hope start walking and eventually running and I would like to start eating healthier. I did buy the foods I need yesterday, now I just need to eat them!
I guess I should set some goals or write a resolution or something...isn't that what EVERYONE is doing? Whatever....I'm not much for having a resolution, but I do want to leave some goals to reflect back on next year.
1. Lose 35 pounds over the year (the RIGHT way-exercising and eating better)
2. Be active at least 4 days a week
3. Run four 5Ks this year
4. Sign up for a 10K if I can find one in the area
5. Look into training for a 1/2 marathon and eventually a full
6. Buy a bike for myself
7. Add in some strength training to my exercise to build muscles
8. Get hubby to be healthier with me by exercising and cutting down on the bad foods
9. Read 3 adult books that will help motivate me to meet my goals
10. Keep my food diary up to date so that I can review it and be accountable
So there... I did it. These are the same goals I seem to have each time I "start" over. This time I want it to be the last time I start over. I know there will be some slip ups or some times when I need to realign my thoughts and goals, but I want to say that I really put my heart into it and did it. I have read so many blogs where the women are so inspirational. Each one of them seem to have finally gotten their motivation to follow through after several starts. I want this to be my time!
