I recently posed a question to my facebook groups asking for recommendations for books that may help give me that ah-ha moment that will spur me to eat better. If anyone has a good suggestion- please share it!
My eating habits are dismal. What does that mean? Here is a quick rundown:
1. I don't eat ANY veggies. I mean 0, zip, zilch. I even go so far as to pick out the green things in my pizza sauce. Why? I don't know. I've tried to understand my issue. I think it's mostly textures that cause me to not like them. I've tried them. I've tried cooking them, steaming them, covering them in cheese, etc. I just can't. I've even tried juicing, but I already had it in my mind that I don't do veggies.
2. I don't care for most fruits. I can eat apples- only if they are peeled (the texture thing- I hate peels!) I can eat some bananas- usually if they are covered in sugar and milk. I do like strawberries- again, if they have sugar on them! I just have a hard time eating straight fruits. I don't crave them.
3. I love eating weird combinations of horrible, horrible for me foods. I love to have a bowl of brown sugar and then dip peanut butter in it. I also melt chocolate chips and marshmallows together. I'm really good at making fake cookie dough. I love to mix brownie mix and eat it before baking.
4. I don't enjoy large meals, or meals at all. I'd be happy just eating the things I mentioned above all day. I have done that before. I just go from one thing to the next and never have a "decent" meal.
So, why? Why is it so hard to break these habits?!
I want so badly to be fit. I've lost almost 35 pounds by counting calories since January 1st. The horrible truth is that while I've lost weight, I did it by going hungry because I ate 1200 calories in peanut butter and sugar. Trust me, those calories add up fast. If I could eat decent food, I'm sure I'd feel a lot more satisfaction.
I want to train for a 1/2 and eventually full ironman distance event. I know I can't do that on chocolate marshmallows. I need to get my diet corrected. The fact is, I've gotten to a place where I'm no longer concerned about losing weight from my eating, I want to be FIT.
This is AWESOME. I never imagined I'd be in this place mentally. I always thought that until I got to my goal weight that I would "diet" to lose pounds. Now I'm to a place mentally where I know that I still have some to lose, but I'm more interested in being fit and healthy with muscles rather than counting every pound I lose. A big Woooo Hoooo... but how?
This is what I ate today....and I feel BLAH!
Tano's and DQ!
I read a blog post from someone else and it really hit home. When I was obese I used to hide my eating habits because I was embarrassed. I hated when I had to be with thin co-workers who could have a bowl of candy in front of them and not touch it while I was grabbing piece after piece. I hated being the "Eater" of the group.
Now that I thin-er and trying to count calories, those same people sneer and roll their eyes when I order water and push the chips and salsa away at our night out while they drink multiple beers or margaritas and down chips plus a meal. I'm equally embarrassed having to be "on a diet" around them. They just don't know how hard it is to be that person who needs to work at it.
I always feel like I put a damper on everyone's evening or lunch date. I am the party-pooper. It's a horrible feeling. I feel like I'm the black sheep no matter what side of the fence I'm on.
I guess if I'm going to be the black sheep, then I might as well learn how to eat to train for something they all think is crazy- an ironman!
So, as I read back through this post, I realize that I have 2 issues grinding away at me. I am tempted to go back and alter and focus the post, but I think these are two very important issues to explore for me. More blog posts to follow on these topics.
Anyone have any recommendations for either of these?!? PLEASE?!