My Exciting Life

I haven't blogged in a few weeks, mainly because I don't think I have much to share.  I dislike reading "filler" blog posts from others- you know, the ones that are mindless and are only written because their readers expect something.

I don't think this is filler, but I guess that depends on what you are looking for.  Race Report?  Sorry!  Exciting Vacation?  Nope.  Feet Fetish?  I have you covered!!!!

I feel like this "foot" thing is a soap opera.  I still don't have any answers.  I have been told so many different things that I'm not sure what to think anymore.  Today was PT appointment #5.  The pain was starting to get worse over the weekend and while I was at a work conference.   The PT doesn't know where to go from here.   As mentioned in the last post- I was told by the ortho that I have weak muscles.  The PT thought maybe something else was going on.  

I have been having "Ionto" on my my lumps....  Here is a picture of them tonight:

The hope was that the ionto would help these to go away.  Instead, they are getting bigger.

The PT is baffled.  At first she thought that they were fluid pockets.  Since her first eval, she has changed her mind.  She now thinks maybe a herniated muscle?  She keeps saying she wants to research it, but hasn't come up with anything.  The Ortho doc said he thought it was just a swelled muscle.  Maybe he was somewhat right.  The problem I have is that the pain is still there.  The lump cause numbness, heat, and tingling when I wear shoes.  I asked the PT if there was any fix if the muscle was causing a hernia and the answer was NO.  

I can't live with this pain forever.  That is NOT an option.  BLAH!

The PT did some mobile tests to make sure I didn't have any ligament issues not Dx'd before.  She did seem to think that I have an issue with how loose my 5th metatarsal was.  She found a painful spot but it didn't seem to help us know where to go.  She seems to think that I tore something or caused a stress fracture during my last run.  Our plan?  I have to finish PT before she can recommend I have further testing.  

I'm annoyed, I'm mad, I'm frustrated.  I am NOT patient.  I am NOT enjoying my lack of running and biking.  I'm so worried that I won't be ready to get back to training in January.  

So what is a girl to do?  I'm really trying to wrap my head around doing strength training while I wait.  I did kettle bells tonight.  I gotta get this figured out.

ENOUGH whining.  Enough about my stupid foot.  FORWARD!

Sunday I traveled to Columbus for a work conference.  I love staying at the Hampton Inn on High St.  The only complaint I have is that the rooms do not have fridges in them.  I took a cooler, but it's one thing I'd like to see them add.

Just across the street was this sign:

Yay!  I love seeing cities supporting the cyclists.  I'm not sure how sharing the cars were, as I did not see anyone riding their bike.  I DID see a delivery truck parked in the bike lane though.  

So, I really want to get over my pity party.  I'm done with it all.  I'm just not the person who can deal well with not having an exact DX with exact plans.  It drives me nuts to "wait and see."  I don't like being told to give it time and to wait to be reassessed.  I worked so hard to get where I am and now I want to keep moving forward.   I don't like this feeling.  I want to move past it.  I WILL move past it.