I've made it through day 2. I still have about 200 more calories to eat, but honestly I'm not even that hungry. I save a lot of my calories for the evening because I knew our dinner was going to be a decent amount, but I think I saved too many.
Sometimes it's strange to realize that those "hungry" feelings I thought I felt were not real. I've not had many calories today and I'm just fine. I also noticed that I have a hard time convincing myself that I don't need something because in my mind, I feel like I'm missing out on something. It's like I have to tell myself that I only need one piece of pizza and that pizza will ALWAYS be around. It's not like if I don't eat the whole large pizza that I will NEVER get pizza again. I always feel like I have to eat it ALL because it is so good... but the truth is, I can have one piece and know that I will have pizza again some other day. Man... I feel like a psycho admitting that, but I really have to remind myself of that every time I eat something I love.
I got 2.5 miles on the treadmill in today too. I'd like to do more, but I don't tend to have a lot of time in the evenings. I have to find a better way to get my activity in.
Tomorrow is another day!
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
Day 1
Ok, so day 1 is over. Or, at least I am in bed and there will be no more eating.
I decided to make a resolution to be active every single day. I alway wanted to have a running streak, but I just didn't feel like that was a good idea for me. I could imagine myself getting hurt or over-doing it. I decided that I could manage to be active each day. I will run, walk, swim, bike, or do an exercise DVD each and every day. If I run or walk, I need to do at least a mile. If I swim or bike, it needs to be at least 20 minutes. A DVD session needs to be 30 minutes or more.
Today I tried my new bike trainer. I think it still needs some tweaking. I don't know much about them, so I'm not even sure it's set up right. My pedals seem to stick as I go around and I feel like I'm not pedaling smoothly. I also need a riser for the front wheel.
After trying the trainer, I got on the 'mill and run just 2 miles. It's been two weeks since my 1/2 and I want to start out carefully. It was a very slow 2 miles, but I upped the incline a bit mid-way through and sprinted a few times. I feel like it was a good start.
I did count every single calorie today and I was just under 1,300. I had to derail my husband several times. He promised to "diet" with me, but I'm sure his total was closer to 3000. If I hadn't stepped in, it would have been 5000! I don't know how he does it. He doesn't gain nearly as easily as me. Our kids wanted to go to our favorite restaurant, Olive Garden, but I managed to convince them that they could have soup and breadsticks at home. I LOVE OG sticks. YUM! There is no way I had enough willpower on day 1 to say no, so I'm glad we didn't go there!
I even manage to not stress eat today. My grandma passed away this morning. She had been in a nursing home for awhile and was taken to hospice just a few days ago. She was 92 and it was her time. Rest in Peace Grandma A.
Well... I'm ready to sleep and I hope to have some better posts for you soon.
Happy Jan 1st!
I decided to make a resolution to be active every single day. I alway wanted to have a running streak, but I just didn't feel like that was a good idea for me. I could imagine myself getting hurt or over-doing it. I decided that I could manage to be active each day. I will run, walk, swim, bike, or do an exercise DVD each and every day. If I run or walk, I need to do at least a mile. If I swim or bike, it needs to be at least 20 minutes. A DVD session needs to be 30 minutes or more.
Today I tried my new bike trainer. I think it still needs some tweaking. I don't know much about them, so I'm not even sure it's set up right. My pedals seem to stick as I go around and I feel like I'm not pedaling smoothly. I also need a riser for the front wheel.
After trying the trainer, I got on the 'mill and run just 2 miles. It's been two weeks since my 1/2 and I want to start out carefully. It was a very slow 2 miles, but I upped the incline a bit mid-way through and sprinted a few times. I feel like it was a good start.
I did count every single calorie today and I was just under 1,300. I had to derail my husband several times. He promised to "diet" with me, but I'm sure his total was closer to 3000. If I hadn't stepped in, it would have been 5000! I don't know how he does it. He doesn't gain nearly as easily as me. Our kids wanted to go to our favorite restaurant, Olive Garden, but I managed to convince them that they could have soup and breadsticks at home. I LOVE OG sticks. YUM! There is no way I had enough willpower on day 1 to say no, so I'm glad we didn't go there!
I even manage to not stress eat today. My grandma passed away this morning. She had been in a nursing home for awhile and was taken to hospice just a few days ago. She was 92 and it was her time. Rest in Peace Grandma A.
Well... I'm ready to sleep and I hope to have some better posts for you soon.
Happy Jan 1st!
Monday, December 31, 2012
In all my glory!
As embarrassing as this is, I'm going to post my BEFORE pictures so that I can say there will be a during and an AFTER. I can't believe how gross my stomach area is. Even my back has rolls.
I guess those of us who need to lose weight need to start some place. I hope this eventually is inspiration to all of you.
Yes, tonight is New Year's Eve. I'm staying home and I will probably be in bed by 12:01pm The only reason I'm staying up is because my oldest thinks it's important. Tomorrow (or tonight at midnight) it officially becomes her 1/2 birthday. Because her birthday falls in July, she has to celebrate her 1/2 birthday at school (which ALSO falls during winter break!) Either way, she thinks it's important and we have to stay up until 12:01 to celebrate the new year and her 1/2!
Due to my child's 1/2 birthday, I have been charged with making her "birthday treat" for school. YAY! (*Please sense my sarcasm!) Lucky me, she has decide that she wants HELLO KITTY Cake Pops. Oh JOY! Let me tell you... I'm not a great baker and I'm even less of a cake pop maker! Tonight was my second go-round attempt. Lets hope all the trials get eaten before my new life officially starts at 12:01am. :)
They didn't turn out that horrible:
I guess those of us who need to lose weight need to start some place. I hope this eventually is inspiration to all of you.
Yes, tonight is New Year's Eve. I'm staying home and I will probably be in bed by 12:01pm The only reason I'm staying up is because my oldest thinks it's important. Tomorrow (or tonight at midnight) it officially becomes her 1/2 birthday. Because her birthday falls in July, she has to celebrate her 1/2 birthday at school (which ALSO falls during winter break!) Either way, she thinks it's important and we have to stay up until 12:01 to celebrate the new year and her 1/2!
Due to my child's 1/2 birthday, I have been charged with making her "birthday treat" for school. YAY! (*Please sense my sarcasm!) Lucky me, she has decide that she wants HELLO KITTY Cake Pops. Oh JOY! Let me tell you... I'm not a great baker and I'm even less of a cake pop maker! Tonight was my second go-round attempt. Lets hope all the trials get eaten before my new life officially starts at 12:01am. :)
They didn't turn out that horrible:
They sure look more appealing than the pictures above!!!
We do need to find a smaller candy for the nose, but other than that they are pretty good for me. For those who aren't dieting yet... the cake is RED VELVET. My favorite! YUM.
I hope you are all drinking some delicious calories tonight and enjoying the last evening of 2012.
Tomorrow is a NEW day and a NEW me!
Tomorrow is THE DAY!
It probably sounds like any other time I try to start.... saying that tomorrow is the day. It's easy to say that tomorrow is the day. However, I'm very much a mental prep type person. I need to be prepared! I could never start a diet on a Sunday... because, well Monday is the start of week. Too bad Jan 1st isn't on a Monday! However, since I'm on break, I can handle the Tuesday start because I don't have a routine to stick to. January 1st the the START of something new. Even my horoscope says that 2013 is the year to build the new me. I'm sure I sound kind of OCD, but I really need to be in the right place mentally or it will not happen.
A Facebook post by a friend who has had Lymphoma 4 times reminded me that I should be thankful for the days I have ahead of me and I should take care of the body I have because it's the only one God gave me. This friend was told a few months ago that there was nothing else the doctors or medicine could do for her. She is a prime example of a positive attitude. She believes in living life to the fullest and even on her "not so good days," she tries to make the best of it. Through persistence and patience, she was called to be part of a new drug trial and starts in 2 days. To have been treated for Lymphoma and been in remission 3 times already, I can only imagine that the frustration of hearing she has relapsed once again and then to be told the doctors can't help her. She is hopeful that the new treatment will help her gain a 4th remission. HER post is what inspires me. Isn't that crazy? Shouldn't it be the other way around? It reminds me of the quote:
A Facebook post by a friend who has had Lymphoma 4 times reminded me that I should be thankful for the days I have ahead of me and I should take care of the body I have because it's the only one God gave me. This friend was told a few months ago that there was nothing else the doctors or medicine could do for her. She is a prime example of a positive attitude. She believes in living life to the fullest and even on her "not so good days," she tries to make the best of it. Through persistence and patience, she was called to be part of a new drug trial and starts in 2 days. To have been treated for Lymphoma and been in remission 3 times already, I can only imagine that the frustration of hearing she has relapsed once again and then to be told the doctors can't help her. She is hopeful that the new treatment will help her gain a 4th remission. HER post is what inspires me. Isn't that crazy? Shouldn't it be the other way around? It reminds me of the quote:
"You never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice."
Isn't that the truth? Why do we wait until we have no choice though? Why not prove myself now?
So, tomorrow is the day. MY DAY! My day to be strong, suck it up and move forward.
I'm hoping tonight to take my "Before" photos and to post them here. Look forward to those!!! They are going to be Horrendous! In fact, they may help curb your appetite.
Wishing you all a SAFE NYE!
Michele
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Starting Over
I was not losing much weight because I was still eating horribly. I wanted so badly to lose my extra weight, but I just got so stressed that I gave up. I gave up!
Two weeks ago I ran my second half marathon on very little training. I made it. It wasn't fast and it hurt, but I made it. I was only running about 10-15 miles a week for training...sometimes much less.
The excuse I started this blog with is now a year old and I don't really think I can use the excuse anymore. (See left picture!)I have been reading some of the blogs that inspire me and the words that are written are SO true. They say it better than I can, so I'm just going to post a few links.
One of my favorites is: Ben Does Life. He just published a book about his weight loss journey and yet he is so honest about his struggles of currently not being active and as healthy as he would like. His words could have come out of my mouth!
Another very inspiring blog is: See Mom Run Far. Erin is a mom to 12 (biological and adopted children combined) and she has lost over 80 pounds and has gone from non-runner to wanting to go to the 2016 olympic trials.
So, once again I'm going to start. I have to admit that I feel ashamed that I have to start over, but so many of us have been on this journey and very few people have figured it all out on their first shot. In fact, I can bet that anyone who has had more than 30 pounds to lose has had at least a few slip-ups or start overs along the way. While it's not easy, it's expected and it's ok.
What's my plan? I'm setting a few goals for myself. These are NOT resolutions. This is what I plan to accomplish in 2013:
1. Lose 45 pounds (Current weight: 190, goal weight 145)
2. Run another 1/2 marathon
3. Run a 5K in under 32 minutes
4. Complete in a sprint triathlon
5. Join Team Toledo Triathlon club
6. Keep up with my blog (at least 2 posts a week!)
These goals are specific, measurable, attainable, realistic, and timely! (SMART)
So here we go!
Michele
Friday, April 27, 2012
All that's New with Me
So I know it's been awhile since I have written, but honestly I just needed to catch up with life and get ahold of myself. There has been so much "good" happen and a few "bad" things, so here is the run down.
I'm SO excited to tell you that I joined Team in Training (TnT) and I will be raising $1250 for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society and in the process training for the Akron 1/2 Marathon.
I will be running a 1/2 MARATHON!! I never in a million years thought I'd say that, but I decided it's now or never.
I bought a NEW treadmill and I have used it when the weather has been less than favorable- which has been often lately. It was so nice for a few weeks and now we are getting cold, wet, windy days. I have been trying to up my miles.
This Sunday I will run a group run with other TnT members. It will be my first ever group run. I am very excited.
So, now for the not so good. My boss and I have not seen eye to eye lately and have been butting heads. I am frustrated and ready to leave my job because of it. I hate feeling that way and I would have resigned if I wasn't the one making most of the money in my family. I am just frustrated that we don't have the same goals and views in our line of work and we can't seem to agree to disagree. The one person who seemed to keep us all kosher has just resigned for a different job. It makes me sad because he was a friend and also a buffer between the boss and the rest of us. Things will just not be the same and quite honestly I am sure it will only get worse from here. I'm stressed about it and I'm just worried about the future.
Today when the boss and I had it out over the phone I eventually wore down and just let him vent. After he was done I hung up and immediately had the thought that I couldn't wait to get home to run out my frustration. I was so startled by my thoughts! I want to RUN out my frustrations???? WHAT??? Before I would have grabbed a bunch of food and gobbled it up. Now I am turning to running? I'm so excited about this happening. So you see- Something good came from something bad.
There- I made lemonade with the lemons!
So on to bigger and better things..... and hopefully more blogging in the future.
M
I'm SO excited to tell you that I joined Team in Training (TnT) and I will be raising $1250 for the Leukemia and Lymphoma Society and in the process training for the Akron 1/2 Marathon.
I will be running a 1/2 MARATHON!! I never in a million years thought I'd say that, but I decided it's now or never.
I bought a NEW treadmill and I have used it when the weather has been less than favorable- which has been often lately. It was so nice for a few weeks and now we are getting cold, wet, windy days. I have been trying to up my miles.
This Sunday I will run a group run with other TnT members. It will be my first ever group run. I am very excited.
So, now for the not so good. My boss and I have not seen eye to eye lately and have been butting heads. I am frustrated and ready to leave my job because of it. I hate feeling that way and I would have resigned if I wasn't the one making most of the money in my family. I am just frustrated that we don't have the same goals and views in our line of work and we can't seem to agree to disagree. The one person who seemed to keep us all kosher has just resigned for a different job. It makes me sad because he was a friend and also a buffer between the boss and the rest of us. Things will just not be the same and quite honestly I am sure it will only get worse from here. I'm stressed about it and I'm just worried about the future.
Today when the boss and I had it out over the phone I eventually wore down and just let him vent. After he was done I hung up and immediately had the thought that I couldn't wait to get home to run out my frustration. I was so startled by my thoughts! I want to RUN out my frustrations???? WHAT??? Before I would have grabbed a bunch of food and gobbled it up. Now I am turning to running? I'm so excited about this happening. So you see- Something good came from something bad.
There- I made lemonade with the lemons!
So on to bigger and better things..... and hopefully more blogging in the future.
M
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