For the last 3 days, I have been working my butt off and eating well. Each morning I have weighed myself and I have gained or stayed the same. It's so frustrating. I know all of the RIGHT things to tell myself. I know weight can fluctuate within a few pounds for very little reason. I know that sodium can make a difference, I know, I know, I know. I just get so mad when I know I've done everything in my power to lose. yesterday I had 4 cookies that I should have had because I just got to the end of the day and I was frustrated. Then today.... well, I threw everything out the window. I just decided that I couldn't do it another day. I had.....
And probably a lot more. At work today they had a dessert bar in the lounge for a teacher who just had a baby and I just ate and ate and ate. Then when I got home, I ate an entire bag of mozzarella cheese sticks.
I. Feel. Sick.
I MUST remember this feeling when I consider making this same decision next time. I feel sick to my stomach. I feel like throwing up everything I ate. I don't know why I couldn't control myself. I don't know why I did this to myself.
Tomorrow is a NEW day. Tonight I am done. I'm done eating and I'm done making bad choices and I am moving forward.
I did manage to exercise for 45 minutes tonight. I was going to run tonight, but I feel physically sick from eating, so I don't think I can. I'm so mad at myself. I will not do this again!!!